'Disavowal' It’s just a little sharp This pain of letting go; Such a small and simple thing But the healing may come slow... I grieve for things that never were, As I sever fragile binds, Ones that only ever existed Within a longing mind... I had my dreams of might've beens But I fought against the tide, And it grew too strong and I was lost, But still I had my pride... Too stubborn to admit defeat, Too blind to realize The battle I fought could not be won Because the field was built on lies... Ever looking outward For a place to lay my sins, But now I know, and so I learned To turn the blade within... Thru the maze of disillusion Thru shards of lost ideals, On a quest to find myself To discover what is 'real' But everything is transient An entropic wonderland, I wonder why I even bother When I'll never understand... But this is the key to who I am I can not stop it now, So on I go, or at least I try In this quest for self-avowal...